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Sunday, October 25, 2009,1:22 PM

You're in my head

Its 5:12 in the morning.
And you're still not calling.
Im just staring at the empty screen on my phone.
And it reminded me of IEA.
Want to know why?
Im not obsessed with her or anything.
Its just pretty hard not to think of her.
You know.
There's never a time when i pick up my phone and it didnt remind me of her.
I miss her alot.
Everytime i picked up my phone i would smile to myself. Sometimes i would slap myself for smiling like some crazy girl in public.
WAITING for your never coming calls.
Aaaahhh, it kills me.
But IEA is always there for me though.
Not in a physical way.
Want to see something?
That always remind me of her?

The wallpaper on my phone.

IEA made that wallpaper for me.
People would check out my phone and say "Who is this IEA? You love her?" *giving me the weird look*
Well i do love her. But its not what you think it is, i didnt write that.
She did.
Im crazy
BUT Im not that crazy.

And i kinda blured that person name that we dont like.
I dont wish to hurt you.
HA.
I dont care about your feelings.
I DONT.
Your just really freaking annoying.
And YOU+HURT= fucking freaking annoying shit.
So its for the best of the three of us.
:D

AND
I promise.
Today i will be officially over YOU.
Over Azman.
NO more waiting and hoping.
Your not worth it.
Well not anymore.

Oh yeah.
Just now, someone called me a sadist.
I've been called alot of things.
But never a sadist.
NEVER.
never
never
I was hurt for 5 seconds.

YEAH five freaking seconds.
And that 5 seconds was the coldest moment of my life.

Swimming swimming.
Guess i wont be sleeping today.
Dont know why i'm not sleepy.
Was suppose to meet Nash later.
Our 4th date.
Wow.
4th.
Should i stop at 5?
mingle.
Flings.
Nothing more. I've learn my lesson.

Before i forget.
JENNIFER'S BODY SUCK.
Megan fox is still hot though.
She's hotter when she kissed her bestf.
nyahahaha~

p/s: Who needs friends? I just need 1 bestf and a few good friends not a two face back stabbing bitch calling themselves a FRIEND.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009,3:43 AM

Darah

Shittiest movie ever next to drag me to hell.

Its like the SAW, only its the Indonesia version and the bad version of it. The movie dont even explain why they kill people and why they want the baby for. Stupid right? Are we suppose to figure it out by ourself.
-.-
I watch it with Nash, my new friend :)
At marina.
I love watching movies there. The room is like SO BIG and SO COLD.
I was freezing and by the time the movie was about to end.
I was concentrating more on keeping myself warm rather then concentrating on the movie.
So in conclusion. Dont watch Darah.
Well its M18. So good luck watching it.

Oh yeah. When i was waiting for Nash.
This cute guy walked pass with his friends and smile, then he came back.

And use this line on me.
" Hey, you look familiar. Have i've seen you before?" *grin*

I kinda laughed at his face.

Like, how many thousand times have i heard that cheesy line being used.
Its soso cheesy and cute at the same time.
We talked for awhile and then he asked for my number.

And his friends were all shouting.
" EH, Jalan larh. Tak dapat punye larh. Confirm."

LOL?

And he was blushing.
Well i did give it to him just because he asked for it himself rather then asking his friend's help right? Like how all the other guys do.
I feel bad though, i gave my number just before my date.

Bitch. Yeah i know.

HA.

Nashrullah :)

end

I thought you were the one. You know, the one that stayed.
I could see myself with you.
No more mingling.
No more flings
No more 1 time date.
No more relationship with no ties.

Only you.

I know there's alot of risk being with you.
The things you do. The things you have to do to survive.
I know i'll get hurt along the way.

But still. I stayed.

Well, i shouldnt had stayed. I should have run away before i get hurt.
Thats why i dont believe in serious relationship.
Its not that im heartless and i dont take things seriously.
Its not that i love dating different guys.
It not that i dont have feelings.

I do.

Im just scared.
I'll run before i fall. I wont stay knowing there's a chance i'll get hurt.
I dont want to feel like that.
You know, heartbroken.

But this time, i tried taking the chance.
And you PROVE me, i was right.
Before things get serious and before i fall any deeper, i should have walk away and never look back.
I shouldnt had stayed. I should not have listen to my heart.

I never imagined you to disappear like that.

I'm patient, but I ain't gonna try
You don't come, I ain't gonna die

No more dating bad/tattooed boys.
And now i think im starting to like dating working guys.
Its so fun.
Not the money though.
pfft.
Im not a gold digger *smiles*

Hmm. Cant wait for Monday.
Swimming with the girls :D

p/s: i miss iea :(

Sunday, October 18, 2009,1:43 PM

I know i haven been updating.
So im gonna update what i've been up to this days.

Tuesday
Stayed home.
Lepak with Mia awhile.

Wednesday
Breakfast date with Iea
Tried looking for a job.

Go Tiong Bahru- bought something

Ikea- Hotdog :D

Anker Point- Bought some T-shirts

Thursday
Karaoke with Azam Nizam Syahin and Iea last Thursday made me feel soso happy.
Its been awhile since we hang out.
And last Thursday felt like how it used to be.

Friday
I cant remember actually.
I think, i woke up feeling crappy.
Sick for the rest of the day.
Didnt go town with Iea and all because of the stupid shitty hangover.

Saturday
Hospital.
Needles.
Alot of needles.
Pain.

end

Man has been busy with work lately, and we dont see each other that much now.
And i had to screw our Saturday plan by getting myself sick.
Good job Isniah.
But he still get the time to call everyday even though his busy and is super exhausted.

Why do you have to live so far away?

,1:27 PM

Never again.

Drink

Drunk

Hangover

Fever

Hospital

p/s: Now he's got a girlfriend.

Sunday, October 4, 2009,7:05 AM

Finally

Yesterday i when to meet Man.

Since i had no plans.

He took me from simei and later on we met his friend, Ijat

Ijat just came out that very day.

So, he wanted to see him since its been awhile.

Chilled chilled. Then we go KFC at tamp.

Man asked me to sit and wait for them because they wanted to go to the toilet.

And they took 1hour to come back.

Man said dieorang berak

I'm not stupid, i wasn't born yesterday.

I know.I know its hard, its very hard.

And i know you are trying.

You're trying your best.

I don't hate.

I just don't like it.

15 more minute and Ijat came out.

He asked us to go his house and eat.

So we when to KFC just to use the toilet and bought some drinks. AHAhH.

At Ijat house.

His sister, brother in-law, brother and nieces were there.

His sister cooked Mee Goreng and i finished it even though i was full okay. hehe

And after that Ijat go out raye and Man took me walkwalk all around tampines.

Best.

And i got to know him better.

We were sitting down at the void deck near Ijat house then came another friend of man, Nick.

Nick very funny. Keep on asking me got any single makciks. LOL.

He went off after he asked if its a second date or first.

And since it was the first, he didnt want to disturb over privacy which i didnt mind at all.

He dye his hair. like matrep sakk.

He wanted to take picture with me. Cute right?
Abeh tak tgk camera. haha

And today i when to tamp again but this time i brought Iea along. New friends PER.

Before that stopped at Tiong Bahru to eat Nasi Lemak :D

So today we hang out with Man,Khai,Adip and Ijat.

Fyi tamp people very open. Its easy to click.

Thursday, October 1, 2009,1:29 AM

Webcam-ing.

I cant upload more pictures :(

Babi btol.

Webcam-ing with the guys.

This time Bam wasnt there.

And yeah the white shirt guy is Man :)

The one i should be chatting with.

But look whose typing, yeah the shirtless guy.

AHAH, sebok je.

,1:19 AM

Yesterday chilled with Iea, Min and Wan.

But we when home early.

So i was super bored and i ask kin to fetch me.

Riding riding all over the place.

Takder keje seh

LOL.

It kills time though.

Thanks Kin for entertaining me. I know i can be a pain in the ass sometime.

But nevermind larh. 2 days off perh, layan je la aku.

Hehe.

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